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i feel like a ghost in my life now. no matter how i spend the minutes, nothing gives them substance. it's almost as if i didn't understand what time was. only remembering it when i think of how long you've been away.

i can see the moments we shared. a year ago, clear as yesterday. but i feel like a stranger in those images. as if i was watching someone else in them, not feeling what i know was there. only the sensation that it isn't there anymore.

so the day slips into night, and i drift farther away from who i was. who i should have been.

i try to recite my name each day, hoping to find my way back again.
but i can't seem to hear over my other self, calling out your name each night. and i get lost again.

i'm not sure what to do now.

where to go.

who to be.

why.

all i ever wanted was in you. all i ever needed i threw away.


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